When we put ourselves above God

Fr. Ron Rolheiser, omi


February 15, 1999

William Blake once said that should a fool persist in his folly eventually that folly would turn to wisdom.

The same might be said about the agnosticism of our time. Our problem is not that we question too much but that we question too little, especially about the things of God. In the end, we struggle religiously not because we are courageous enough to ask the hard questions, but rather because we are afraid to face the hardest question of all, namely, the one about God's holiness and otherness.

In the end, we are not very open-minded at all and this constitutes our real problem in terms of believing in God. We do not have trouble believing in God because we are finally courageous enough to look reality square in the face, but for the opposite reason, we do not persist far enough in our courage and questioning.

What is implied here?

Many of us today, for all kinds of reasons, are uncomfortable with God's holiness as Scripture defines it when it tells us that God is totally beyond our imaginations, concepts, language and feelings: "God's ways are not our ways."

If the Scriptures are to be believed then God can never be figured out or second-guessed. You can shake your fist at God or you can bend your knee in worship, but you can never understand God.

Thus, at the end of the day, whether you are staring at blessing or curse, graciousness or suffering, love or hate, life or death, you can only say this of God: "Holy, Holy, Holy! . . . Other, Other, Other! Totally beyond anything I can say, think, imagine or feel is God."

That notion, however, is easily lost. Like Job's friends, we like to compare God's ways to our ways and, on that basis, find God unacceptable.

We do this in all kinds of sincere and well intentioned ways: for example, we say things like: "If there were an all-loving and all-powerful God, this suffering would not exist!" "An all-powerful God would do something about this!"

These expressions, and the attitudes that go with them, seem enlightened, sympathetic and courageous; certainly most people would say that of Harold Kushner's book, When Bad Things Happen to Good People, which says precisely those things. Religiously, however, this is problematic. Why?

Because when we think like this, in effect, we are creating God in our own image and likeness. By doing that we are shrinking an infinite God to fit our finite, human understanding.

While that might seem to be a way of making God more sympathetic to our human plight, it has a devastating underside. It eventually leads to atheism because whenever the full holiness (the otherness) of God is reduced, we are ultimately left with an impoverished deity who is not worth believing in.

A God whose thoughts are our thoughts and whose ways are our ways, a God who can be understood, is eventually not an object for worship. Such a God is too small, too ordinary and too impotent to be an object of faith. Likewise such a God can neither be fully Creator nor Redeemer and will be seen as an opium for those who lack real intellectual courage.

If God is no holier than the way he or she is thought of by many people today, then Karl Marx is right. God is a projection of the human mind and mystery is simply another word for ignorance.

Small wonder we struggle with faith and belief in God – we think of understanding as faith and already know the limits of understanding! To truly believe in God, we must have a sense of awe and that is predicated on God as being conceived of as so awe-filled and holy that we want spontaneously, like Isaiah, to purge ourselves with burning coals before approaching such mystery.

Our problem is that we do not contemplate because we are convinced there is nothing worth contemplating. We've already had a look and we know what's there! And so God becomes for us not so much a holy fire as a complex equation that we have more or less understood.

Because of this we are often fixated at a certain level of agnosticism, of questioning. We wonder, seek and courageously ask questions, up to a point – that point where God's ways are no longer our ways, that point where understanding runs dry and faith has to take over. There we stop questioning.

But faith never demands that we stop asking hard questions. It demands the opposite, namely, that we persist in our questioning (beyond the limits set by intellectual fashion of our age) until our folly turns to wisdom.

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